How I miss you. Some days it doesn’t hurt as much when I allow myself to think that you are just elsewhere. Of course you could be elsewhere …in heaven. You know I don’t really know but what I do know is if I continue to try and live how you lived we will end up in the same place. Anais is really growing and birthday coming up soon. Trying to think what you would do with the birthday if you were here. I know it will come to me. Anais is also getting more and more like you – her mannerisms and voice remind me of you. Also she is loads kinder!! Love you Dit ..miss you so much.