Oh Dit, life is hard. I feel so angry for you. I feel so sorry for me, for Dad and your grandmas. My life is one long effort at trying to soothe myself..minute to minute trying to find things to distract me. I put my heart and soul into you and you so responded. It’s seems to wrong that this is what we get for valuing what was ‘given’ to us. Nonetheless we keep trying, we play our part and even try to enjoy it. I love you..and I really really wish I could convince myself that we will meet again. Love you. Seeing your photo makes me so happy.